I didn’t read every single one, but I am so glad to finally find others with similar predicaments with overthinking. “All the stuff they were originally excited about is just not there.”. can I go back and talk to whoever made the comment that they did and straighten it out? Pretty soon, it’s all you’re thinking about. I don’t even have a Facebook page ( I obsess that every comment I make will be scrutinized and that I am not as witty or interesting as others) … The comforting thing is that I can say to all of you “sound familiar?” and you would understand and more than likely have the same feelings. Sure I had some severe episodes before but those I was able to forget. It always is, and if anybody would understand, it’s y’all. Throw me into a total breakdown. So typing it all out, it seems pretty clear that I could be bipolar. It’s a rather odd feeling because I can actually feel the OCD subsiding and I’m glad that those thoughts are vacating my brain. My newsletter contains mental health news, speaking engagements and more. I can’t let a conversation die. Interestingly, one analysis found that OCD occurs with bipolar disorder at a much higher rate than the major depressive disorder. Do you have any problems making decisions, even simple ones, and then catch yourself on this and get more stressed out? I have tried pushing it away but it keeps coming back. At times the dreams are so real that I wake up wondering if I really did whatever bad thing I dreamed. Running helps. You have to provide usable, indicative information so that in his(psych) brain he can interpret it in terms of his books and experience. It’s the first time I have no been able to cope. In fact, obsessive thoughts aren’t often the problem. When I’m manic the problem can increase 10 fold so it’s very important for me not to let things get too far, That was profoundly helpful. How can i say 10 years ago? Any secret tips on dealing with obsessive thoughts? Lingzhi mushroom or Reishi mushroom (Ganoderma lucidum) If I don’t get it in check, I can become completely out of touch. rapeseed oil Also, “The skills only work if you do them.” Knowing about them isn’t enough. If your thoughts tend to be more intense in the morning, for instance, you might plan to go for a regular run before breakfast. “More often than not, that time never comes because the problem has been defused,” she adds. Wow! Bipolar Obsessive Thoughts and False Memories . Another year has come to an end and with this, we reflect on some of the magazine articles, columns, and blogs that connected most with the bphope community in 2019. One of my “trades” is programming. I like the word “echo.” This lady at the library was really rude to me today, and I kept seeing her face, flashing again and again in my head. And Judi. So I just did. I started to remember a dream I had of my father kissing me which really grossed me out. She uses the analogy of being chronically late to class when encouraging herself to stick with it. I am probably the most immature 47 year old in the world. Some people are just human garbage…. So, I know I could do it myself, but I want the psychiatrist to tell me its ok first. If it was a conversation that was harsh , I obsess over what I should have said to defend myself . It doesn’t stop the thoughts but it can dial down the intensity. I still remember being mortified. And in those times, I talk too much, I draw maps of the world and think of all the places I’m going to go, I listen to road music, I change my schedule. Actually gets you what you want. “There’s something in the brain that needs to ruminate and worry and obsess about different topics. A. And it feels so real that I just have to react. Now I’m sitting here like a sprung teenager obsessing over how to win him back, I’ve lured him in sexually and emotionally given home the how could you guilt trip. It’s the adverse reactions to them that cause problems. We were completing a life story and people around me were talking of repressed memories . The problem comes when they do more than intrude—they won’t go away. I apologize for for rambling. I can talk to him about this and ask him to clarify what are his thoughts and feelings under the seemingly dampened response to me, and he does the classic shutdown and shows anger and frustration toward me, making it impossible to meet in the middle and have a discussion – even when I am not emotional or showing that I am hurt by it. The key is to decide in advance on some options for distracting yourself. 34YO Male: Earworms, yes. I have a great sense of humor. But at the same time, new rapid racing thoughts come flooding in, and the pressured speech starts. and what I do is break down the obsessive thought and deal with each part and run it through my DBT skills. funny you mentioned musical earworms… because I do use music to outplay my thoughts at times. We look forward, eh? Oh to hell with it you decide for yourself. Required fields are marked *. Except my OCD bipolar thoughts don’t end till I take a small dose of [moderated – an antipsychotic]. Conversations bad or good, mainly bad stay with me….forever. Parts of movies, sometimes several scenes at once, play over and over, and it will start to feel like the characters are shouting at me, personally. I’m not a scientist, or a doctor … I just need to be patient and wait, and in time my hatred will become pure and I’ll feel better. J Obsessive Compuls Relat Disord. And conversations in my head are gone. It just depends on how much stress I’m under. I have learning disabilities on top of bipolar dyslexia and attention deficit I thought that I would be a good idea to write a fanfiction story about a show I like over the summer It turned out petty good witch amazed me cause I always thought i was a sucky writer but now I’m obsessed with it I can’t get lines from it and new ideas for chapters out of my head and things I want to correct and the anxiety I’m experiencing from it is giving me back pain and nerve twinging **** every time I find something I enjoy my bipolar or learning disabilities ruin it for me I had my meds uppd but this does not seem to be helping I hope this is resolved before I go back to school can’t be obsessing about my anthropology papers to the point that my back hurts well I could but it would suck Yes, technically they’re called obsessive thoughts, and I have racing thoughts as well. 10. It wasn’t even anything that bad. I realize other people don’t do it, but then I think its just me. Obsessive–compulsive disorder (OCD) is characterized by obsessions or compulsions (or both) that are distressing, time-consuming, and oftentimes impairing. And before i know it i think, why didnt i say that. Any thoughts? “You’d pack your bags, lay out your clothes and shower the night before, make sure you have a ride, and so on to make sure you aren’t late again. OCD/ intrusive thoughts can be a way for our mind to protect us from trauma and pain. It feels like I am in a different world and I hate to come back to reality. “It takes a long time to be honest with yourself about it. And sometimes if I can’t get the thought out I’ll squeeze my pinky through my fist until it hurts a little. I haven’t felt this bad ever. Over time, the frequency of the particular obsessive thought gets less and less. My only escape? Of course, it comes with its downfalls. I do not have auditory hallucinations, but I liken some of my obsessive and compulsive thoughts to them: as if I “have” to do certain things….but I do not literally hear a voice instructing me to do so. If I hear one harsh word from someone,even if it is my good old friend,I repeat it again and again in my head. Bipolar disorder is a condition that causes major changes in activity, energy, and mood. I spent a good hour trying to decide if I was going to stay at my friend’s house as I don’t want to wear the same clothes as today (irrational; she and I wear the same size shirt) and I didn’t want to leave the cat (he can go without eating for 36 hours). He is also human and hurting. So challenging them just exhausts me mentally — but not such that the thoughts stop hounding me! But am I the only one who kind of enjoys obsessing over things to an extent? Or am I just in a relationship that I cannot make work for me? Don’t tell him as much as you can. It’s very hard to break the cycle when I become single mindedly fixated. I don’t like it at all. Quiet time is when I tend to automatically and unavoidably sink into my own head and dwell on the bad thoughts. He didnt tell me this but someone else who told me and I guess this person is a little worried. Repetitive thought pattern tell me all about it. Ice is FROZEN. Naturally the very next day I referred my decision and called him with a just kidding factor. Exact opposite of my experience. It’s one of the few guilty pleasures that I do have in my life and besides I’m getting a ton of stuff done for a change, I rationalize… Tomorrow of course is another day when I’ll have to crawl back in my cage and be the responsible adult that I know I can be…, I tend to ruminate obsessively in a circulate fashion about an issue that i find worrisome. Breathing can become shallow (so take a deep breath). Only way to counter is to watch my thoughts or distract myself. Well, to be fair, bipolar can drive you mad all on its own, but. But I need to be patient with myself no matter what anybody says. Natasha Tracy is an award-winning writer, speaker, advocate and consultant from the Pacific Northwest. I denied – to myself – that I wasn’t okay. I am going through an extreme amount of obsessive thinking to The point where I think it’ll get between me and my bf. Obsessive thoughts is something I battle too. That is the battle. They usually focus on death, sex, and religion, but also have been about certain people or activities. So, do you obsess? The clinic where I got therapy and pdoc help during the several years of aftermath offered a “lite” version of DBT. Another obsession is with fashion, and redesigning my house. I have finally discovered a way to quiet my bipolar mind. I haven’t been told I was bipolar, so I’m probably unique with this. My obsessions are almost completely based on fictional universes, characters I relate to (which is a handful and I sometimes go days believing that I AM the character), even film soundtracks–I’ll listen to it over and over, learn it on the piano, the list goes on. The only way is to believe that you are bigger than god. Solid dosing, all the time. Having intrusive thoughts, images, and impulses appears to be a nearly universal constant of the human condition. I have a long drive to work, and rush hour traffic is horrible (a 30 minute drive can be as long as 1 1/2 hours, and I don’t do well with road rage). A. It was actually annoying the hell out of me, but I couldn’t make it stop. When somebody asked why the negativity, the people explained that I was cringe-worthy (I’m that kind of overoptimistic ignorant aunt-figure? A. With more self-knowledge in hand, it’s time to deploy distraction and defusion—a label for distancing and disconnecting your mind from whatever idea is consuming you. Try to reduce it by: For the last two days I’ve been struggling with the song “Hip to Be Square” and bits and pieces of several scenes from American Psycho. Don’t you think that god always ask himself how was he created. Use a alarm watch to remind you. TRYING TO FIGHT MY MENTAL HEALTH ISSUES HAS LED TO YEARS OF CATALOGING THE SIDE EFFECTS AND SYMPTOMS OF THEM, WHICH FEELS LIKE FIGHTING THE HYDRA OF GREEK MYTHOLOGY — CUT OFF ONE SYMPTOM, TWO MORE APPEAR. At the moment, I’m obsessing over batman films and games (which will most likely change to something completely different). I used to live in North Hollywood, CA and since 2012 I’ve dealt with a lot of dreams of meeting celebrities and being rude to them. 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